pas·sion
n.
1. A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger.
2.
a. Ardent love.
b. Strong sexual desire; lust.
c. The object of such love or desire.
3.
a. Boundless enthusiasm: His skills as a player don't quite match his
passion for the game.
b. The object of such
enthusiasm: Soccer is her passion.
I'm talking about the second lot of meanings here,
enthusiasm etc keeping this a clean post! Passion is something I think about a
lot, at art foundation I am surrounded by people who have a passion for what
they're doing which is originally why I took it, to find my
passion. Sadly I did not which is why I'm not continuing and instead I chose
media, culture and journalism. I didn't choose it because I am passionate about
it, it just seemed interesting and I didn't want to be stuck in Birmingham for
another year even though I have started to realise this city is slowly growing on me (finally
after almost 20 years!)
My mind goes blank every time I try to think about something
I'm passionate about, I mean yeah I like clothes but I'm not exactly lusting
over the fashion world. In fact I guess I can't be that passionate about
clothing a) I'm too indecisive b) I don't really have a certain style. If I do
go hunting for clothes I just get frustrated. I like a lot of things really but
all I see it as is a bit of dabbling.
I'm not exactly looking for my passion or anything I just
hope it comes to me one day. Maybe it will come if I ever become a mom when I'm
older and all that deep, meaningful shit. Or maybe a year travelling the globe,
who knows? It frustrates me a lot that I have nothing I really want to sink my
teeth into especially when so many people around me have something like that,
maybe it's more envy rather than frustration? Although I am tremendously proud of the people around me and what they
have achieved. I know a lot of people are probably in the same boat as me so
I'm hoping this post doesn't sound all too ME ME ME. I just think by finding some sort
of passion I would feel more comfortable in my own skin that's all.
And in the mean time while my passion is taking it's sweet
time to get to me I am currently baking and attempting gardening so over the
summer I'll develop into a 52 year old elderly person and hey ho maybe even attempt cross stitching!
Thrilling times ahead I must say.
Peace
