time to start

I made this blog a few days ago but the truth is I'm terrified of starting it. I'm not sure why, could be do to with the fact that I over think everything to such an extent that it stops me from having an open mind at all. I literally condemn everything, every thought that comes into my head I destroy. Which is why my new years resolution is to have an open mind.

But the more I think about having an open mind the more my mind refuses to do so. I'm a perfectionist who likes to analyse every little detail, a thought can pop into my head and the process begins..

Analyse every word completely

Did they really mean that or did they mean this?

Perhaps they meant this but with a hint of this?

It continues and never really stops, this is something I've done since before my teenage years which means 10 years of constant nit picking. I want to change how I think this year. 2013 is the year of changes and what better way to start than changing how I think.

And so it has begun, by making this first post I'm one step closer to changing.

I'm not really sure what this blog will be about, probably anything but I need to start writing again as I'm a little rusty and don't have much confidence in myself anyway. Also art foundation has turned my brain into mush.