Change

A bit of a vague title really but something that I have learnt in the past 8 months is that I really despise change more than most things. Even if it's a positive change I still cling onto April last year when I was probably at my happiest but then once again for my life to get to that point lots of changes would have occurred. I see change as a pair of dice, I might release them from my hand one day with all the optimism in the word but I still might not get the change I was hoping for but it might be a different kind of change I wasn't even expecting.

When I think about Art Foundation it leaves a sour taste in my mouth, it's is something that has made me bitter. If I could explain Art Foundation as a colour it would be grey, it's made everything about me grey. I see everything in a grey light when I'm there, my mind shuts down and I feel like the tiniest speck of dust. It has a hold on me and it smoothers me and everything in my path I destroy. I would like to say this hasn't affected my personal life but sadly it has.

I wont go any further with such morbid writing but the positives I can write about Art Foundation help me to overcome the negative aspects are

That I have made some incredible friends and strengthened some already amazing friendships

I now know what I want to study at University and have confirmed my place at Glamorgan in Cardiff (soon to be know as the University of South Wales)

The thing is things may not be how I want them to be right now and I know they are never going to be like April last year but I might roll the dice again and get a change that I'm content with. Relationships may be strengthened or destroyed or just take a really good bruising overtime but maybe if I just keep rolling with the changes that are occurring I might get something really good out of it. I'm more than terrified for the next couple of months and I don't believe that by having a positive mindset everything will be fine because fate is a cruel hand that plays apart in every humans life but as long as you have some pretty decent friends who can pick you up than you my friend are lucky.